3rd Trimester Pics

I meant to post a couple picks with my 28 week update, but, of course I hadn't taken any (2nd child problems).  Okay, the other and more likely reason was that I hadn't been "dressed" enough for a picture in a while (working from home problems).  I was actually home this Sunday, so I was dressed for church (and a picture!).

So, here ya go...

 

I went and got a mommy-to-be massage yesterday.... WHY in the world do I not get massages more often?!?  I know that sitting at a computer all day has really messed my neck and back up.  I was on pain a lot, way before I was pregnant.  As I said before, my sciatic nerve has really been flaring up as well, so a massage was very needed.  I think she said my back felt like "guitar strings."  I can't remember exactly what she said but she said my neck was one of the worst she ever felt and she was really surprised that I don't have more headaches.   It didn't occur to me until then that I have had far LESS headaches since I've been pregnant (minus the 1st trimester).   I guess hormones can have some positive effects!  Sometimes I feel like they probably say this to everyone to encourage more massages, but I know it's true in my case. One of Andrew's friends that's a physical therapist (and not looking for business from me) pretty much told me the same thing. He said my neck/back were just all full of knots.  I think I'm going to start treating myself to massages more often.  I have a feeling I'll need them even more after we've got TWO rug rats running around (and I'm back to sitting at a desk all day... boo) !!! :-)

Hello, 3rd Trimester!

I am officially in the 3rd trimester, or at least my little "What to Expect..." tracker says so.  28 weeks today!

I am certainly feeling very 3rd trimester.  The blissful days of the 2nd trimester are behind us and now the feet & hand swelling, can't sleep, always have to pee, can't get comfortable, holy crap! we will have a newborn in 3 months phase has set in! 

Too much physical exertion (whether it be dancing or cleaning) makes my sciatica flare up REALLY bad.  I don't remember having any sciatic nerve issues at all with Carson, but MAN, it's been a literal 'pain in the ass' with this little girl!  The swelling has commenced and many of my work days are now spent on the chaise end of our couch versus sitting at my desk.  I could barely move after dancing all night at my brother's wedding and could barely move after cleaning the farm.   Thank goodness Tylenol is allowed, even though I'm sure it's not nearly as good as many other OTC pain meds. 

I'm in the "sympathy" stage of pregnancy where random strangers make comments like, "Oh, girl, you should be the one in that buggy."  (versus Carson at HEB)  I have a feeling they would be surprised to know that I still have 12 weeks to go!  I definitely look and feel like I should be in my 8th month versus 7th.

I can't comfortably wear my Aggie ring... which I hate since football season just started.  Gig 'Em!

Little Miss is VERY active, which I still just find so fascinating!!  I'm in that creepy, it looks like there's an alien in my stomach phase.  Sometimes she's subtle in her movements, other times, not so much.

I guess it's the Braxton Hicks, but I'm certainly experiencing a lot of tummy tightening.  It gets hard as a rock!

The count down is certainly on and there is SO much to do.... like an entire nursery and get all the necessary newborn stuff either out of the attic or purchased.  I have all kinds of cute outfits for her to wear next summer, but not one Pampers Swaddlers diaper or basic onesie (well, I do, they are just "boy" ones).  Time is flying FOR. SURE.

25/26 Weeks!

2/3rds of the way there!  WOW!!! Time is flying and the Zulily purchases are increasing.  I see how easily this "girl stuff" buying can get out of hand, especially after you've had a boy!   I love traditional little girls clothes (sweet dresses, smocking, bubbles)... it's all so cute!!!  I'm not really into some of the "cha cha" stuff.  I want my little girl to look like a little girl, not a diva.  I think Andrew and I also have a rule that the bow can't be bigger than her head!  haha

I certainly feel much bigger around this time than I did with Carson.   I was looking back at pictures, and I still look to be showing about a month ahead of where I was with C.  Second kid, I guess that's expected.  I guess it's also expected that I haven't posted any pictures since 20 weeks, don't take a picture every week, and that I am WAY behind on the whole nursery/prepping for a baby stuff.  I remember freaking out if I was a day late on my weekly pic.  Really?!?!  Priorities certainly change once you already have one running around and keeping you on your toes.  Oh yeah, still no name either.

In my 25 week post with Carson, I was talking about how I was ABOUT to have an outey.  I've had one for a while now with Little Miss!!!  One other strange belly thing is that I DON'T have the black line this time.  I totally had it with Carson and it lasted for a long time after he was born.  I have no traces of one as of now, which seems odd, but oh well.

She is certainly active and I feel her moving around and punching my bladder all the time.  She got me really good the other day.  It felt like she was reaching as far as she possibly could.  It wasn't sudden, but it felt like she just took and arm or leg and stretched it out slowly as far as she could.  It hurt!  Even though it's not always comfortable, I love feeling her move.  It gives me comfort that she's growing and everything is okay.

I don't know if it's because I have to be more mobile because of Carson, but I feel way less mobile already and getting out of bed or off the couch is already a challenge.  What am I going to do for the next 14-15 weeks?!?  I also tire more easily.  I was on my feet all day Sunday and just felt so OLD.  I was hurting.  Andrew worked all day too in the house and we both crashed at 9.

OREOS... man, OREOS are heaven right now!  I seriously could eat the entire package in a day if I would let myself.  I show restraint and usually take 3 days instead of one.  :-)

Plain or vanilla yogurt with frozen blueberries and local honey is also a daily staple, along with rice or any other carb.  I'm just always hungry.

My ADD (which I don't technically have... I think.  Never been diagnosed, but certainly wouldn't be surprised if I was.) is out of control.  Work is REALLY a challenge right now.  I can't sit still.  I can't focus.  My memory isn't all there.  I think a lot may have to just do with all the house/personal projects that are constantly swimming in my mind.  Wanda graciously came down for a couple days to help clean and organize.  With her help, MAJOR progress was made.  I'm losing my office/guest room/junk room, so there is a lot of stuff that needs to find a new home, whether that home be another place in our house or in someone elses.  I went from a whole room with an executive desk and bookshelf to a closet.  Yes, my office is in a closet (separate post on that later).  I also had someone come in and deep clean.  Why don't I do that regularly?  Pretty sure I will be starting a weekly/bi-weekly cleaning service ASAP.  I'm SO excited that my lifelong BFF (who is due 2 weeks afer me) and I are taking a "personal to-do list" girls weekend.  I can finally get all those picture books and blog books done. I can also sew, which is my ultimate stress reliever (until I constantly mess something up and want to beat my sewing machine with a hammer).  YAY!!!  I can't wait!!!!

Did I ever mention I am not a "selfie" picture fan?  So awkward!

 

Such a Sweet Big Bro!

I am SO excited to see this sweet big brother in action!  I hope he's is still this excited when she gets here!

 

20 Weeks & a Little Scare!

Hard to believe it, but we are HALF WAY there!!! 

 

I'm definitely bigger this time around than I was with Carson, even though this picture doesn't really look like it.  I got called out [about being pregnant] by a complete stranger 3 weeks ago in a McDonald's bathroom in Galveston.  That was at about 18 weeks.  I've been called out several times since.  With Carson, I was 22 weeks before anyone said anything.

 

I'm definitely feeling Little Miss moving quite a bit.  Occasionally you can see the movement from the outside, but I haven't tried to see if Andrew can feel anything yet.

 

Cravings-wise, it's pretty similar to the first time around....Carbs, fruit juice, and ice cream. 

 

I'm already having to pee all the time and sleeping on my back is no longer that comfortable, which is a good thing, since I'm not supposed to be doing that any more anyways.  The same goes with lifting Carson.  It's not that hard to just hold him, but trying to swing him up in the carseat or on the changing table (which is thankfully, not THAT often), is becoming increasingly difficult or uncomfortable.  He's somewhere between 35-40 pounds, so I try to keep the lifting to a minimum for sure.

 

 

Terrible bathroom selfie....

 

I had, in general, been feeling pretty good, until this happened.....

 

Lately, I've been having lightheaded spells.  I had one on Wednesday while at work in Houston that led to me passing out in a cubicle and my first ambulance ride to the ER.  I didn't fall, I felt it coming on and was able to lay down, but it was the worst one I've had in a long time.  It was Deloitte and building "protocol" for me to go to the hospital, or at a minimum, get checked out by paramedics.  They take things pretty seriously if anything happens in the building (liability issues), but even more seriously if you are pregnant.  As reluctant as I was to go, I know it was for the best.

 

My system has always been pretty sensitive, and I've passed out (apparently "syncope" is the official term) or nearly passed out ("near-syncope") several times (when I wasn't pregnant).  Pretty much every time it had ever happened before, I had forgotten to eat and then ran around or worked out or something.  I LOVE to eat, but occasionally, would just get busy and not eat anything for several hours.  Andrew makes fun of me sometimes that I eat ALL the time, but I'm not one who can miss meals without it messing up my system.  I really do have to eat multiple small meals a day versus 3 big meals. 

 

Anyways, the reason this one was a little scarier was because it was the 3rd time in 2 days that I had been lightheaded to the point I had to sit or lay down.  I didn't pass out the other two, but it certainly seemed to be a recurring thing.  I was at Office Depot the day before and as I was paying, started to feel weak and lightheaded.  I grabbed a Gatorade out of the drink fridge near the check-out and sat on the floor.  I never 'saw black', but it took 5-10 minutes to feel okay enough to stand up.  Wednesday morning, I think I may have just gotten up from the table too fast.  That episode was very short-lived.

 

When the medics took my blood sugar at the office, it was 74, which isn't that low, but even Andrew said he starts to feel a little off if his blood sugar is in the 70s.  They ran a bunch of tests at the hospital and everything seemed to check out.  My papers indicated "Unknown" as the cause of the syncope.  It was likely due to a drop in blood sugar.  They do want me to see a cardiologist to rule out any kind of arrhythmia.  They did an EKG and everything looked okay, so it's just a precautionary measure.  I have an appointment with my OB/GYN next week, so I'm sure we'll talk about it all in more detail then.  They requested all my records from the hospital prior to my appointment.  They didn't seem terribly concerned, but certainly want to follow-up. 

 

Of course, they wanted to check the baby at the hospital, so I ended up getting a full, detailed ultrasound.  During the ultrasound, as they were measuring the leg bones, they asked me if my husband was tall.  Apparently, they can tell she already has long legs.  I was 19w 6d when I went in, but she was measuring over a week ahead.  This sounds familiar.... Carson always measured at least a week ahead.  One AWESOME part of the ultrasound was that we learned that we did not have SUA (single-umbilical artery) this time!!  Carson had SUA, which technically made that pregnancy "high risk".  I still remember how terrifying it was for them to call you after the detailed 20-week ultrasound and tell you they found something 'abnormal.'  If you made the mistake I did of Googling "SUA" or "single-umbilical artery", you get all kinds of terrifying information.  Fortunately, everything turned out just fine, but it was a relief to know that this wasn't something we were going to have to face again.  Little Miss was moving all over the place... I was REALLY hoping for a slightly LESS active child this time around... haha! :-)  Her heart rate was 139.

 

So, minus this recent bout of lightheadedness and weakness, I've been feeling pretty good.  It's hard to believe I still/only have 4 months to go.  The "Still" part... Part of me already feels so big and can't imagine getting as big as I was with Carson again.  (It's crazy how much you can stretch!).  The "Only" part.... holy moly, we haven't done ANYTHING.  No name.  Haven't started the nursery.  Haven't done as much of the transitioning training at work that I know NEEDS to be done.  Haven't cleared out any of the boy stuff that I said I would do as soon as I knew it wasn't needed.  I know 4 months is still a long time, but the next month is pretty much booked.  My brother is getting married.  Andrew is pretty much MIA during September because of work.  October includes a good friend's wedding (that Andrew is in) & engagement party for Andrew's sister.  So.... looks like we're going to have to MAKE time somewhere!  Thanksgiving (and Little Miss!) will be here before we know it!

17-Week Update

Other than the big news that we found out we are having a little girl, the other big news is that I am finally starting to feel some movement!  I remember with Carson that I wasn't sure if I was feeling anything or not until it was very obvious that I just took a kick to the bladder or ribs.  I'm not having those movements yet, but I'm definitely "feeling the bubbles" and occasionally a little more.  I certainly recognize it now way more than I did the first time.  I still remember with Carson when I was farther along how weird it was to look down and see some body part move from one side of my stomach to the other.... creepy but cool!

I'd also say that I have "popped."  There hasn't been one person say to me, "Oh, you don't look pregnant."  I heard that for a long time with Carson.  Nope, not this time.  Definitely looking pregnant.  Andrew and I did crack up at the pool a couple weeks ago when we met the parents of one of Carson's little friends.  When they asked if he was our only one, and I told him we were expecting, he joked, "I thought you just liked to drink beer."  Haha... We thought that was pretty hilarious.   I can easily feel the top of my uterus just below my belly button and my lower abdomen is hard.  It's getting very real...

It's a _______!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

"GRILL!!!!" (as Carson says), and she says "Howdy!"

 

Monday was the big day for our gender ultrasound. I was SO much less anxious this go round than I was with Carson. I was super excited but surprisingly very calm.  We would have been happy either way, but part of me always wanted to be able to have one of each just to experience both sides.  Andrew and I both came from a family with one boy and one girl, so that naturally fit.  We also have TONS of boys in the family, so there needed to be more girls to balance everything out.  On my dad's side, there were 9 grandchildren and I was the only girl (I wasn't spoiled or anything!).  There are 2 great-grand kids, both are boys.  My cousin (in law) Kristine joked that I was the only hope for the Morgan family to get a girl since Andrew was the only non-Morgan blood responsible for a baby's gender.  In Andrew's family, boys are definitely the majority as well in the youngest generation.  Charlotte helped even up the score a little bit, but there's still a long way to go!

Ready to go find out the news (16w 4d)!

I think the general consensus from most people was that they thought it was a girl.  This was due to 3 primary factors: 

1) Higher heart rate.  It was 180 at 10 weeks, 169 at 12 weeks, and was 154 on Monday.  Carson's was always higher too, so I didn't really take this as 'evidence' that the old wives tale was true.

2) I was sick the first month of my pregnancy.  I wasn't sick with Carson. 

3) This was somewhat of a "surprise" pregnancy vs. "trying" when you knew you were ovulating.  This baby was not conceived that close to my ovulation day at all.

Well, they were all right!

Little Miss was stubborn though and must have wanted us to keep practicing our patience (does she not know how much her big brother already does this!).   She was not cooperating when we first went in.  She was OUT.... hand behind the head, not responding to the pokes and prods, OUT.  Well... after changing positions and poking at my belly for about 15 minutes, the tech decided to give me a peppermint and a couple Dum Dum's and take a break.  She was hoping a little sugar would get the baby to start moving around.  We were joking that maybe this kid would actually be CALM, something that we are NOT used to AT ALL.  I went and did my quick OB check-up and then came back for Round 2.  I guess the tech's trick worked because baby girl finally started to move around enough to expose herself.  I saw what I thought were those "3 little lines" right before the tech pointed out those "3 little lines."  This angle looked a lot different than Carson's, so I knew right then that it was a little GIRL!  I was seriously shocked.  I thought we'd have all boys and since everyone else thought it was a girl, I went the opposite and thought it was a boy.  I think one of the first things we said was "our moms are going to be SO excited!"

Baby Girl Peters was SO cute during that second round of the ultrasound... she was just waving away.  The tech was able to get some cute pics for us!   Can't wait to meet this sweet baby GIRL!!! 

 

While we are thrilled, I have to admit, I think we're a little terrified too.  I know I was not the most pleasant teenage girl at times and there were some showdowns at the Morgan house over boys, dating and going out.  I have a feeling this will be payback!  Andrew and I already joked that he's had to shoot at one guy in our house and he's not afraid to do it again!!!  He'll be the dad that cleans the guns when her dates come over.   Haha!

 

Until those days a LONG time from now, we'll embrace the bows, dolls, sequins, tutus, etc.!  I've been good at not overdoing it on Zulily, but I have a feeling I'm going to be in trouble now.  Girls stuff is just too stinkin' cute, especially after having a total boy who's most happy in a hideous lizard t-shirt!

 

SO EXCITED!!!

1st Bump Blog Post

This was last Sunday, about 13 1/2 weeks. I don't ever really take "selfies" so I know I look a little awkward. 

 

A bare belly shot (which there likely will not be many of this go round) would certainly reveal more.  I'm showing EASILY a month ahead of where I did with Carson.

 

The cute border is to attempte to hide our disastrous closet...Not sure it worked. :-)

 

There is lots of cropping involved, but this was right at 14 weeks (bathing suit is not as bad as bare belly, right?... Carson and I were headed to the pool.)  You can DEFINITELY see the bump here.  I don't know if it's the rouching or what, but I look VERY pregnant here!

 

 

 

1st Real Appointment

We had our first "real" appointment last Wednesday.  Everything went smoothly... Praise Jesus!!!

The nurse said it may be a little challenging to find the heartbeat with the Doppler, and it was... it took a little while, but once they did, it was a strong 169.

He said I looked to be measuring right where I should be... around 12 weeks.

Since the initial heart beat at 10 weeks was 180 bpm and at 12 weeks it was 169 bpm, I've had several people say that it HAS to be a girl (the whole higher heartbeat = girl old wives tale).

Well, I tried to see in my blog where I documented Carson's heartbeat, and of course, I only found it twice.  At 10 weeks it was 173 and at 15 weeks it was 155.  SO..... I'm not totally convinced that this old wives tale holds true for my babies.  We shall see in about a month!!!  Woo hoo!!!

Just wanted to say....

I know there has been a lot of sadness and worry in some of my writing lately, but I sincerely hope that I'm not bringing anyone down or causing anyone who may be pregnant to worry.  These have just been MY feelings based on why I went through last fall.

If you are pregnant, you SHOULD be excited!!!  I know I was with Carson and didn't worry at all.  If you've been through a miscarriage before, you understand why it's different the next time around just because of the increased awareness of what can happen. I am so happy to be over that initial 12-week hurdle and am so much more at peace now!! I feel better physically and emotionally, we are no longer hiding anything, and we know that our baby is developing as it should. I've accepted it's all in God's hand and I'm ready to sit back and enjoy the next 27 weeks!!

So.... BIG CONGRATS to any other mommies-to-be out there and ENJOY your pregnancy!!!

 

A Look Back... Panic

Written May 1 (Almost 10 weeks)

With this pregnancy, I had pretty much been feeling like crap since about 5-6 weeks, so for the last month or so.  I was nauseous all day, every day.  I've even puked a few times.  I probably could have more if I'd tried.  It's amazing how much better you feel afterwards.   I've been so tired.  Boobs are uncomfortable.  Pretty much all of the pregnancy symptoms.... I had them.  Fun stuff.  BUT, to me that was a GOOD sign... as long as I was feeling pregnant, I wasn't as anxious.

Then...

It all stopped.

Literally, over the weekend of April 27th, ALL of my symptoms just disappeared.  I completely lost it.  I was an emotional wreck and had 100% convinced myself that I was miscarrying again.  I was praying like crazy for peace of mind, but I was just SO convinced that it was happening all over again.  It was the absolute worst feeling, and the only reason my nausea returned was because I was so sick to my stomach with nerves.  I called the doctor first thing Monday morning and they were so kind to let me come in on Tuesday morning for an ultrasound to make sure everything was okay.  Our first appointment wasn't for another 2.5 weeks, and there was no way I could wait that long.  I was already planning how to tell our family that we'd lost another baby.  It was just awful.  As my cousin Kristine reminded me, Satan preys on us in our weak moments, and he certainly knew what my weakness was and was doing everything he could to keep me from giving my fear to God and having peace of mind.

The tech doing the ultrasound was the same one that had to deliver the bad news last fall.  I think she was nervous for me too.  I think her job would be so fun most of the time, but just heartbreaking the other times.  Anyways, she started her exam and as soon as I heard that heartbeat, I just broke into tears.  It was the most beautiful sound.  It was very strong at 180 bpm.  I have never been so relieved.  I didn't leave without hugging the ultrasound tech.  :-)   I guess I should just consider myself lucky that my symptoms are gone (for the most part), but I don't know if it was worth the emotional roller coaster they put me on.  I am just SO thankful that they were able to give me that piece of mind.  I wasn't myself for a couple days.  I was becoming reclusive and almost starting to mourn the loss of a baby that I didn't even know if I had lost yet. 

 

After this appointment was really the first time I really felt like I was allowed to be excited.  I was almost 10 weeks, we had seen the heartbeat twice (once at almost 7 weeks and then with this appointment), and that heartbeat had been very strong.  I wasn't quite as secretive about telling people but certainly wasn't posting anything on Facebook quite yet.  Our next appointment is May 15th, and I'll be right at the 12 week mark, so assuming everything checks out at that point, I'll probably feel pretty good about going public with our news.

A Look Back....Not a Fan of this Stage & a Sigh of Relief

Written 4/9/13 & 4/10/13 (Almost 7 weeks pregnant)

While I love that I'm pregnant, I HATE this stage of pregnancy.  After losing a baby this fall, I can't help but be concerned.  I constantly pray for peace of mind, but it's a weakness that I certainly struggle with.  With Carson, the thought of miscarriage almost never crossed my mind.  Now, I just have these awful feelings that something will happen again.  I know I shouldn't worry but I just feel like I got the same news as last time and am in this waiting game for bad news.  Terrible.  I know.  Last time they said my progesterone was low early on and I ended up miscarrying, so when they tell me it's low again, I immediately (as much as I don't want to) fear the worst.

I feel like a prior miscarriage robs you of your ability to enjoy pregnancy (or at least for the first 12 weeks or so).  Maybe it's just me, but I think anyone that's been through it knows that it's different the next time.

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Whew... HUGE sigh of relief today!

I have never had an ultrasound really early on with Carson, but I guess they are nicer to you after a miscarriage and want to try to give you a little piece of mind as soon as they can.  I was so nervous to go in for our ultrasound because the last time we were in that room, we did not get good news.

Well.... we got to see our {very} little nugget today and when she pointed to the heart beating I just burst into tears.  She wasn't sure if we'd be able to hear it or not, but she turned the sound up and there it was.  Music to my ears!  I was so emotional.  The heart rate was 128, which she said was very good this early on.  The baby measured 6w 5d which is right where we thought it would be.  Again, HUGE sigh of relief.  We didn't ever get to hear a heartbeat last fall.   I know that it's still early, but I finally feel a little peace about being pregnant again.   I'd hardly allowed myself to enjoy it yet or be too excited because I learned the hard way how quickly things can change.

In terms of how I've been physically feeling, well, I certainly have felt very pregnant this past week or so. I remember with Carson around weeks five and six were really the only time I ever didn't feel good. I haven't thrown up or anything but certainly do feel very nauseous, pretty much all day. I don't have much of an appetite and most hot foods are very unappealing. I prefer cold foods without a doubt.  I want fruit juices like apple or cran-grape (not orange) and smoothies. I'm pretty sure that was a craving I had with Carson too.

Surprise!!!

Now that that it is "Facebook Official", I can finally publish some of the blog posts written up to this point that have patiently been waiting in "Draft" form until we got more into the "safe zone". 
 

So, here's the first one from the day I found out we were expecting again...

 

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Certainly wasn't expecting this today (3/26/13)....

 

I didn't even realize that I was late until I looked at my calendar.  As you know, we found out we were pregnant last September and then miscarried at around 10 weeks.  Initially I thought that as soon as I had the "all clear" to start trying again, I would be ready too.  Emotionally I was ready.  I had accepted what had happened and was okay with it, but something in me just said to slow down.  There wasn't a rush.  I feel like I was in such a rush to get pregnant with #2 that I had forgotten to embrace and enjoy all the fun things we were experiencing with Carson.  I was so full of 'baby fever' that I didn't realize how much fun Carson was at this stage.  Once I realized that, I was no longer in a hurry.  Additionally, if we had gotten pregnant right off the bat, it would have meant having a baby during Andrew's busy time of year. 

 

Then, as most of you know, on December 1st, our house was broken into while we were home by a crazy, doped up guy with a knife.  After that happened, I was SO thankful I wasn't pregnant.  My stress level during that event and in the days to follow was through the roof, which definitely would not have been good for a baby.  Further, in January we started doing the work on our house to fix what was messed up, along with pretty much a full blown kitchen remodel.  There have been paint fumes, lifting stuff, LOTS of dust, stress of living in a completely disorganized house, etc.  Again, SO thankful that I wasn't pregnant when all of this was going on.  As with so many things in life, maybe in some weird way, our miscarriage in the fall was a blessing in disguise.

 

This was also my first year as a Manager at work and we have lots of new staff.  Being 8-9 months pregnant during busy season did not sound fun and leaving during busy season to go on maternity leave would have caused a little anxiety for everyone.

 

 Of course, if I had been pregnant during all of this, I know that He would have gotten me through it, but I'm just convinced that everything has happened according to His timing. 

 

We had been 'playing it safe' if you will ever since the miscarriage and thought that we'd quit playing it safe when getting pregnant meant a baby born sometime after Christmas, preferably February or really any time in the spring. 

 

Well... apparently it only takes not playing it safe one time at the right time to wind up pregnant.  I was pretty sure it was not my "fertile time", but apparently it was.  Whoops!!! ;-) I have to admit, I kind of always wanted to get pregnant that way... more fun! :-) 

 

While I am THRILLED to be blessed with being a mommy again, having lost a baby, I already feel a lot more anxiety this time around.  I don't feel like I am allowing myself to be too excited yet, which is unfortunate.  For most people, finding out you are pregnant is such an exciting time, but as excited as I am, I have never been more fearful as well.  With Carson, I think I was in pregnancy la-la land and the thought of something happening never even hardly crossed my mind.  Ignorance is bliss, I guess.

 

Please keep us in your prayers.  Pray for the health of this baby and that we can enjoy the miracle that is being created inside of me instead of fearing what could happen again.

 

I did the math with one of the online due date calculators and our due date should be somewhere between November 28th and December 3rd!  Looks like I could possibly be sharing my birthday with this little one or we could be having Thanksgiving in the hospital!

 

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I'm so glad the Big Brother shirt I bought last fall still fit!  I was hopeful he'd be able to wear it again soon, and he got to!